GOD ,, please help me !!

GOD , can i ask something??yes i can.right?

why do you give THIS problem?why?it's too hard for me to stand by myself on THIS problem.it's a problem where only ADULTS could settle it.i'm not AN ADULT.i'm ADOLESCENSE man.i'm ONLY FIFTEEN!! AGAIN I REPEAT FOR YOU i'm FIFTEEN !!

i need someone that i trust to share my problemsssssssssssssssss !!!

yeaah i got that man.but we run out of credits.BOTH !!soo i don't have him with me right now.he LISTEN to my problemss.he UNDERSTAND my problems.he ASK me to be strong.yeaaah and that's him.i can't be strong right now.i'm too weak for this.he's not here to tell me "u can't do this " , " u can't do that " , "there's other way to solve this problemss ".because when i'm stuck in such of this situations i will do what I LIKEE even i know that he DOESN'T like me to do THAT THING.i have too.he's not here for me when i'm in this situation.

GOD , do you want me to be in the COFFIN today??do you want me to KILL myself??NO I WON'T.i can't leave him ALONE.and i don't want to ROTT IN HELL because i hang myself.who wants that??

PLEASE GOD , I BEGGED YOU PLEASE TAKE THE PROBLEMS AWAY FROM ME